Lucid Decisions

It doesn't happen every dream. But often I become aware that I am dreaming midway through a dance, or an argument I am losing, and think ummm, this isn't working, try again. My dream director yells cut. I repeat the scene with minor modifications, but I can only change a few tiny elements, I am still stuck in quicksand or being chased, like last night.

A one armed, fur covered, man creature with a half melted face was lumbering after me. One eye was the size of a peach, the other a small green grape. He was painfully slow and noisy like my friend's bulldog, so I should have been free. But rather then run and leap, I would hesitate at the edge of each building. I entered this lucid state mid-jump, I could see at least 30 feet in front of me before the next building started. I was going to splat. Rewind, both of us, ten paces back. The problem, I couldn't pick another building, change direction or even turn and poke his grape eye. I just had to keep trying to jump a gap that may have been too long for Spider-man. I eventually wake up, but after around 20 half-building jumps; I feel exhausted.

My neuron record also skips some mornings when deciding what to do. A ceaseless loop of what-to-do today, right now, this week, my entire life. Hestiate, jump, retreat. I over-research and under-do, I make the gap between buildings wider rather then spending time spinning my Spidey-web. The enemies: curiosity, indecisiveness and too much free time. My photography classes start this Friday, but I am going to add a few more. A drawing class at the Art League in Alexandria, and a writing class at Bethesa Writers Center. For breaking out of my short-circuit cycle, I wrote up notecards and put them in a bag. The cards have either creative, household or computer projects. Simple, right?

Some information on lucid dreaming:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Lucid_dreaming
http://www.lucidity.com/LucidDreamingFAQ2.html