Suck back
This posted initially started as an apology email for my DC judgements this past week. On the flight back to Seattle, snippets of my conversation flicked me on the nose. I cringed at my familiar pattern. I said that? Did I actually smirk and add a ‘so predictable’ nod when I heard a heated political discussion? It was the Categorudge phase.
I’m sure there is a psychological reason for the need to minimize the past and idolize the future while you are in a transition. It probably keeps us from using packing tape and attaching our legs to an empty apartment door. Yet when I’m on the receiving end of someone trying to calm their nerves with the numbered negative list of what they left behind – I defend. And order more beer.
About this time last year, my sister and I both believed that the source of misery was work, and that it stole our time and inspiration and if that was gone.... Now we have the time, but we still puddle around with periods of indecision and personal boredom. DC wasn’t an evil workaholic city that kept me chained. I did that. I also lived there for 12 years and voluntarily returned once after escaping. It's a good place.
So, in summary, I’m formally recalling portions of my conversations this past week. I'm fairly sure that's allowed.
My sister looking at redwoods. Not in DC or in Seattle.
I’m sure there is a psychological reason for the need to minimize the past and idolize the future while you are in a transition. It probably keeps us from using packing tape and attaching our legs to an empty apartment door. Yet when I’m on the receiving end of someone trying to calm their nerves with the numbered negative list of what they left behind – I defend. And order more beer.
About this time last year, my sister and I both believed that the source of misery was work, and that it stole our time and inspiration and if that was gone.... Now we have the time, but we still puddle around with periods of indecision and personal boredom. DC wasn’t an evil workaholic city that kept me chained. I did that. I also lived there for 12 years and voluntarily returned once after escaping. It's a good place.
So, in summary, I’m formally recalling portions of my conversations this past week. I'm fairly sure that's allowed.
My sister looking at redwoods. Not in DC or in Seattle.
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5 Comments:
I agree with the negative snippets being part of coping with transistion. It helps us chew apart the rope tied around the wrist.
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Anonymous, at 1/25/2007 5:28 PM
Oh, I would love to see a sketch of that...
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L, at 1/25/2007 5:32 PM
That's a good impulse, I think. It means that you're able to move on easily. You like a place when you live there (you see the good in it), but when you leave, you're happy to be where you are. That's hugely preferable to doing nothing but complaining about a place when you're there and romanticizing it when you're gone. Right?
"Categorudge". Love it.
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Reid, at 1/25/2007 5:52 PM
trying to get some branch
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Anonymous, at 1/26/2007 11:11 AM
I was the complain and my life would be better 'if' for too long. I'm going to try this route.
Of course, I have changed a lot of the "ifs", so I am not actually a controlled experiment.
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L, at 1/29/2007 5:41 PM
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